pei shan

2009-11-07T00:54:00.007+08:00

戴上了耳机，仔细地聆听着这些歌曲的旋律，以为这样可以让自己的心情好过一些，可是却万万没想到我的情绪完全操控了自己，现在的我只是想大哭一场，让所有伤心的眼泪流尽。。。。
到了这一步，已经不知道该怎么走了，接下来的路究竟应该让我一个人走，还是再给他一个机会陪我渡过？我也不知道，只是很犹豫，很无助，更害怕自己会做错决定。真的不想在以后的日子里留下任何遗憾或后悔，可是现在的我很痛苦，很难过。我依然还爱他，但对他已经彻底失去了安全感。。。以往的他给予我百分百的守护，现在却总让我觉得空虚，很寂寞，好像只有我一个人在维持这段感情。。我只是个小巨蟹，一个会累的巨蟹。。。你可以体谅我的感受，多呵护我吗？我。。开始觉得累了！！！

2009-09-20T22:08:00.010+08:00

Today is our third "dating" anniversary... .. . everything happened in just a glimpse and it's really tough to imagine that we have gone through our lives together for three years.. in these years, i would say that the first few years is the most memorable portion that is intensely engraved within my mind, where i still remember how we bump into an embrace that meant so much to me, how he supported me when my life is filled with incessantly streaming tears.. can even feel the warmness by just refreshing the happenings... Nevertheless, relationship doesn't always goes on smoothly with only happiness and smile without any forlorn incidence..without tears, we wouldn't realize how precious a single smile will be... Dar, thanks for presenting all these memories to me~ No matter it's a sweet one nor bad one, I'll keep it and hopefully one day when we have a ride back on our days, we can feel the peak of happiness, with no regrets.... ... .. .

tOday's celebration
my 21st birthday `09
1st anniversary
Oct `08

2009-07-05T12:30:00.003+08:00

abandoned my blog for a very long time d...still busy busy busy, feel so hectic and pressure with assignments and crazy quizzes, almost driving me crazy and suffocated..haiz....Anyway, still wanna wish jin phern happy birthday, don be affected by moody me lo,hope he really enjoy his day although he is far away from his family and friends...Besides, still gotta wish Weng Hong a safe journey tomorrow (haha, if I am not mistaken, he is flying back tomorrow).....Everyone, take care and hOpe one day we can really meet up and gather..

2009-05-11T15:51:00.002+08:00

As usual, I attended the appointment made with my dentist tOday so that he can make amendment and adjustment on my teeth...but the unusual thing occurs tOday.. the adjustment hurts me!!! OMG..very pain...this is the first time i felt the intense agony but dare nOt shout nor move... sob sob..

2009-03-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

reading friends' blog...
What a such failure I am as a friend...now only I knew that some of my friends has endured hard times and I just knew bear on it... Although we are not really close, but I really wish to give them the support that makes them a better and stronger man.. life is about a journey that may be ended with a happy or sad ending, but the most miserable part of it is going through the journey without any strength from the surrounding, as if you are walking alone at the dark street without any people. "It's freaky"... friends,"sorry for not being part of the strength in the tough battle"

Besides realising that I am a poor friend,I obliviously found that everyone has just grown up, having their own slot of thinking..but how come i am still living in the same manner, possessing the same steps of life? I wish to be indepemdent, to be someone that is improved...

2008-12-23T23:38:00.007+08:00

I watched IP Man with a group of friends in Pavillion today... hehe...so paiseh to tell that this is the first time I go to Pvillion although I am staying in KL for so long...a bit embarrassing lo...
but never mind, at least I have left my footsteps there..

imitating Ip Man...but seems to fail ..lolz
group of us..a break before we start the exam battle
"us" in front of x'mas tree
wearing an exclusive mask..wooh..
siew chan "sa po"..hehe
my sis..
m3...

2008-12-22T21:11:00.006+08:00

nini is so cute..miss "him"

Today is "dong zhi" festival and atmosphere of joy should be developed...
but very unfortunately, my little nini left me yesterday
there is nothing I can do to retrieve "him" back
feeling so regretful for not being there during "his" last moment..
so helpless..
-_-..I'll miss "him"...

2008-11-05T23:33:00.007+08:00

*having a quick dinner in KLCC* feeling exhausted yet happy

Watched High School Musical 3 today...
lOve the songs so much..
they are totally filled with romance
hehe..thanks to my dar's junior for the treat.
tq ya

2008-10-19T00:02:00.011+08:00

For the past two days, I gained a brand new experience that is deeply appreciated and it's really hard to tell how exhausted I was, but it's definitely worth it because it's an unusual and uncommom occasion where i learnt and observed a lot ...

Dato' Dr Ng Yen Yen and us ^^

2008-10-12T13:16:00.005+08:00

Early in this semester, I have requested a transfer from group A2 to A1 and a week has obliviously passed. During this very short period of time, I had an apparent feel of being happy in this entirely new environment which comprises of new classmates... not to say that group 2 is not a good place for study, presumably just doesn't suit me.

I "fall in love" with group 1 because I find it easy to communicate with each and every one of them, we can form one big clique instead of separate tiny cliques, it's a sensation of unity...I have been in group 2 for two years and i think it's time for me to change an environment to quench my boredness and hopefully this new group will impart even more joy among us...Anyway, I'll always remember Pui Ling gang and retain the bond that we have built so far....No matter what it is, I wish all ACB students "happy sem, happy study" although everything is getting tougher. gambateh ^^

2008-07-31T18:47:00.019+08:00

贝贝和妮妮是我今年的生日礼物，
抑是我生命中第一次养的小宠物。
看着它们无辜可爱的模样，
真是乐不可支！！！
爱死它们了...muah...

2008-07-28T08:58:00.025+08:00

毕业愉快！！！

cheeeese...

祥&我

双胞胎之族

一帮同科系的朋友

2008-04-26T18:39:00.039+08:00

IN lOve AGAiN

when you smile
my life becomes a ray of light
sing me a lullaby
to sleep at midnight
i'll be hypotizes when looked into your eyes
turn off the room light
let's spend the night
take me to far away
away to your secret place
take my tears my fears
take all my pain for which i'll repay someday
with a kiss and say
can't believe that i'm in love
in love again
when the stars don't shine
and when the birds don't fly
and when the flowers cry
and when the rain runs dry
when the violet's red and when the rose turn blue
baby i'm still in love with you

I am intensely in love with this song...
Presumably many people have been in lOve fOr few times but unable to maintain the happy moments. Nevertheless, there is always hOpe and anticipation in this world. One day when u manage to look for the right one, u will probably feel that starting a special kind of relationship with unique bond is like a remedy that heals the pain in your heart. Perhaps by then, u may attain your peak of happiness in life ^^ All my friends, never give up in lOve o~.. Keep in mind that there is always sOmeone compatible that may shower your fragile heart with love

2008-04-05T15:26:00.026+08:00

me, mOm, sis & dad

My brother eventually graduated on 29 of March 2008... That day should be a grand day for all graduates, but unfortunately it appears to be apparently the other way..We have to jostle around in bunch of people and end up sweating but still unable to look for a comfy and suitable place for capturing.. Haiz.. a bit furious that day, but i tried to control d..haha (bad tempered)

wOOhOO~ anyway, my brother is working d, although it's low in terms of his salary, but at least this can lighten my parents' burden..^^ wish him all the best o~ Gambat3h !!!

2008-03-17T21:53:00.025+08:00

白羊座
白羊座的人内心起伏激烈，大都属于一见钟情式。男性会用激情去赢得女性的爱，女性甚至会主动追求所爱的男性。所以白羊座的人谈恋爱非常积极热烈，主动直接，一心一意把自己的情意传给对方，为了所爱的人，也愿意奉献。热情的白羊座一旦听到对方说喜欢你，就会忘掉一切，对对方言听计从。但一时失意时，就会心境冷淡，缄默不言，此时容易见异思迁。
金牛座
金牛座的人希望能找到能够给予爱心和关怀的人，同时又不希望对方要求太多。所以金牛座的爱是被动的爱，对谈恋爱谨慎小心。对所爱的人不敢表达，而是将感情埋在心里。通过慢慢交往，慢慢培养感情之后，才进入热恋状态。而一旦金牛座真正爱上一个人，会用情专一地深爱对方。金牛座完全把结交异性朋友当作是婚姻的准备，所以交友很慎重，没有把握的恋情，从不去尝试。如太过谨慎难免有晚婚的迹象。
双子座
双子座的人善交际，口才好，人缘佳，恋爱的机会很多。与双子座的人在一起永远不会感到无聊，因为双子座的人极会营造浪漫有趣的爱情氛围。但同时，双子座的人不愿受到爱的束缚，也不会为爱情而苦恼，所以双子座的爱情是轻松的，同时也有见异思迁的倾向。
巨蟹座
巨蟹座是最有家庭观念的星座。一旦有所钟爱的，就会真心真意对待对方，待人温柔体贴；但由于感情细腻，容易为情所伤，很在意对方是否一样真心对待他（她）。
狮子座
狮子座的人热情开放。遇到所爱的人，会坦坦白白、大大方方地将自己的爱意表达出来，内心渴望有轰轰烈烈的爱情，抱着一种理想去追求最高的幸福；所以一旦被对方拒绝，内心将十分痛苦。
处女座
处女座的人对待爱情内向害羞，不敢表达自己的心迹，不到一定程度，总与对方保持一段距离。有纯洁天性的处女座内心渴望追求到梦幻般的完美爱情。总在一旁冷静地观察对方，慎重地对待爱情的发展，只有诚实可信赖的人才不会伤害处女座真诚、纯洁的心。
天秤座
善于控制自己感情的天秤座不会主动的去取悦对方，而是等着爱情来追求自己。很注重异性的外表，表面对爱情很理智，其实内心在不断地求证，寻找有力证据支持，一旦确定之后，用情则专一。所以，要得到天秤座的爱，必须有耐心。
天蝎座
天蝎座的人对爱情认真，需要拥有忠贞不渝的爱，如果被异性欺骗或遇到竞争对手，报复心是异常强烈的。不过，天蝎座的顽强的精神使他（她）愈是在艰苦的条件下，愈能表现他（她）勇敢、任劳任怨的品质。会是一个出色的伴侣。
射手座
性急、热情的射手座一旦找到喜欢的人，就会积极地追求，而自由的性格又不喜爱对方约束自己，时常不辞而别，缺乏持续性。重视精神生活，拥有正确人生目标，刚毅果断的异性才合适你。
魔蝎座
对爱情含蓄保守的山羊座似乎对爱漠不关心，其实只是不注重表面的东西，而是渴望得到真正清纯的爱情。开始接触时会让人觉得难以接近，但却是一个有执着爱情信念的人，一旦付出真情，就会坚持到底。对方应多多引导魔蝎座。
水瓶座
注重友情的水平座不会追求缠绵的爱，总是以朋友之心对待恋人，不希望彼此约束对方。从友情发展而成爱情，对水瓶座来说是合适的，对方要能理解这种淡淡之交的爱情。
双鱼座
多情的双鱼座是一个向往浪漫恋情的人，会积极主动，投入全部的感情来爱自己所爱的人，而不在乎对方会付出什么。一旦发现自己的爱成为对方的负担之后，也会静静地走开。

It's quite true for mine, check out yours ^^ !!!..3njoy it!!!

2008-02-14T19:48:00.013+08:00

祥, 我们一起彻夜赶报告, 筹备考查, 下乡, 所做过的傻事及其他美好的回忆, 我永远都会烙在脑海里, 然后甜在心里。(嘻嘻...就算因此而患上糖尿病也是值得的) 谢谢你一直以来给予我的关怀, 谅解和包容。从我诞生迄今, 你是我遇过最好的男生。虽然有时候会为了你情不自禁地掉下眼泪, 可是有泪的爱才最真实, 最让人无法忘怀, 不是吗?不管发生过什么事, 能守在你身边, 我就觉得幸福!!!

其实, 有些情侣的爱情很短暂。他们在那短短的时间内, 就像是干柴烈火一样, 爱得如火如荼, 可是一旦过了一段漫长的时间, 感情或许会随着岁月的流逝而渐渐淡漠, 生活也变得越来越乏味。这种恋情通常只有一个结局, 而这个结局是我最顾虑的。因此, 不管有多少障碍与阻隔, 我都会尽我的全力来维持这段感情, 使它更精彩, 更具生气!!!祥, 在心里深处, 我真心希望你和我可以彼此扶持, 把一时“热情如火”的恋爱化为永恒“柔情如水”的恩爱。希望过几十年后，视着我弯腰驼背的人是你!!

在这里祝你情人节快乐, 愿我们永远幸福。我爱你^^。最后, 我想为今早的事道歉, 想回去好像是我无理取闹, 或者应该说是我太情绪化了, 对不起O !想念着你......